i cant eat tofu any more

i am back to kittypoop.

i...feel so bad.

and i hate to say that...but really.

im depressed - yea thats right - i admit it.
so shut up

i feel like i REALLY want to cut my hair and thats how i know i am really depressed and not just - blue....

i wanna cut off my dreads....

yea thats right...but i KNOW i am going to feel like sheyt when i am done and them i'll want them asap!!!

i dont knwo what to do...everything is so confuzing lately....and i fought so hard for these dreads...

to get my mom off my back...so many unessicary problems......


im chopping.

i think....

life is really bad right now.

and no one will listen.

and you know what- i dont care anymore.

i am dying

no not really

but my IBS i so bad today...and im not doubled over in pain but - i feel like i am going to explode out of every orifice.

kill me toady??

i really want to clean

and i smell

i need a shower.

bah

anyhow - i am frustrated about my bowels....

so eat it bowels...EAT IT!!!

meow.

all the love.

FUCK OFF!

<3

job interview today

so nervous


really want the job.


eeeeep

eep eep eeep


eekkkkiepoopieface!!!


anyhow

my lova is picking me up at 1:30pm ish at school to take me....


NERVOPUS HASDGJKB SDKGVNEIPPP :FKNZSD:GHASGNK


GAH


le love,
le meow

le nikki rae

tattoos are love.

it is only a little after nine am....

i am sitting in english class.

the worst day

late

traffic

double late

no gas

no money

no brain power

group therapy

328 pages.

page 30



but i showered this morning...and it was nice...i little rushed...but nice...

i havent showered that early in years!

and a plus as well - i quite possible am getting a tattoo today with rachael...james and sean are coming too...

i hope it all works out.

pee ess...


i have a ehm effin JOB INTERVIEW on friday!!!! AHH!!!!

word...

for a awesome sex shop who needs reps to go to women's houses and do those, lingerie and adult toy parties...awesome...

ive always wanted to do those.

meow.

i FUCKING hate this FUCKING block on FUCKING classlink

we are old enough to type it and say it and understand it...but NOOOOO we cant READ IT!!!!! heaven FORBID@!!!@oesih#$yihh

anyway.

i would like to be doing anything...like looking at my friends page...or even one certain community...

but no.

ugh

REN AND I ARE GOING TO SEE MELISSA ETHERIDGE IN CONCERT!!!! weeee!@!!!!@##4r4tihgobuixfjf i am excited....

it is OSTARA!!!!!!
happy day beytch.

i need my hair palm rolled badly.

rae and i are guna get tattooooooed soon!!!! weeee!
i hope so cause i am sooo excited and really - badly need a tattoo beytches.

kthnxbihoz.

mike mccoy just broke up with me...but then he killed himself...so its ok ^_^

"cinnamon gum - it excites you mouth!"
frank is wonderful

anyhow...

jesus it is already 2nd period...and i want to DIEEEEEEEEE.

i am overwhealmed....betychez.

anyhooooooot.
love.

i need peace....i need calm...
i need it not to be so effing cold....
ew
cold!

<3

uhm ok....thats all then


peace.

i hate just about everybody today.
minus rae
and ren
and a few people through this big screen that ive never come into contact.
fab.

ugh


how can you think or say that an animal has no soul?
just because it cant tell you?
when a kitty looks at you with THOSE adorable loving eyes...how can you say it has no soul?
when a cow or chicken trembles with fear...how can you say it has no soul?
when a dog looks at you with fierce angry eyes...how can you say it has no soul?
hampsters die of depression and a broken heart...along with geese and other animals...do they have no soul?
just because they cant voice that they have one...doesnt mean they dont.

you wouldnt eat your cat or dog would you???

FREAKINGOUTFREAKINGOUTFREAKINGOUTFREAKINGOUT.
i have been so well for so long - why is this happening to me?
why am i feeling so sheyty?! i dont get it *POUT.SON*
wubbya teaeff.
i dont understand my body and self.
i love ren.
i hate this.
meow.
i cannot wait till it is nice and sunny and warm out...
and i am done with all of this crap.
which does include school - which i have...tomorrow...and till june...
and that makes me want to die.
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good night.